Praying for Death
Have you ever prayed for death? I don't mean praying for the death of an enemy in a moment of anger. I don't mean praying for God to take you out of this world before your time. I mean praying for the death of someone you love. Is it ever appropriate to pray this way? If you've ever experienced the death of a loved one, you know the pain that accompanies such an ordeal. It isn't the pain of a physical injury or an emotional insult. It isn't the pain of guilt or hunger or fear. It is all these pains wrapped into one. It's an empty feeling that moves from your heart to your stomach, numbing your mind, leaving you searching for distraction and escape. But there is no escape. This kind of pain may dull over time, but it never fully goes away. There might be moments when it's forgotten, but there are other times when a smell or a scene from a movie bring it back as though the wound were newly inflicted. And yet, sometimes we pray for this kind of pain to be